So after talking about stuff for many hours, my boyfriend and I have come to a conclusion.  We know that we are good enought together to get married.  So, we are planning to get married in october and we are going to be prepairing for that day by fixing stuff up around his house and saving money to be sure we can financealy make it.  If we aren't totally sure that we can do it in october, well, we will just push back the date until we know we are ready and prepaired fully.  We are going to keep it quiet around here for a while, but hopefully at the end of the summer we will be able to tell people that we are indeed engaged. 

I know people like my mom aren't going to like the idea, mainly because she doesn't like any guy or any thing that keeps me away from home.  But it's my life, I love the guy, so one day we are going to be married.  Hopefully we can honor my grandfathers memory by getting married in october (October 1 my grandfather passed away and I turned to my boyfriend for support, and that all kinda got our relationship rolling).  That's something else I don't think mom will like.  Getting married in october  and wanting to because of grandpa, not going to like it at all. 

Anyways, I'm so excited and nervous with the idea of having to prepare and for that day to actually come.  ^_^ but still I can't wait.